Yesterday, I have dinner at Qian's place with have a delicious dinner! Really enjoyed myself there.. I am looking forward to the Kitty Lab at Expo tml.. Will be going with xiu after work.

Third Day at work and i am sick of it.. Feel like quitting liaoz but no $$, so i have to stay on for another month.. So far, the colleagues are pretty nice. It's just the work tht i do is boring.. :)

Just now, randomly i called him up. Was feeling bored and can't go to bed.. (tht's y i am typing away here, just ended the call no very long ago..)

In the mist of talking with him, suddenly i become a little emo.. Luckily, i controlled my emo or else it will be another nite of crying. (after many days of stable emotions..) Ha~

Well, is everything going too peacefully between both of us? Am i worried of the outcome? OF COURSE, I AM!! But wat to do, no choice de.. Got to face it sooner or later.. Sianz arh.. Sometimes, really wish tht i can sleep and just die off.. It's the best way to end life.. Dun worry, i won't die so easily de. Still got to pay back my parent money first.

Anyway, It is true that before every storm, the sea will be very peaceful? Is this wat it's going to happen?

For now, I am not really feeling anything now with the fact that he is still my bf. At least he still is my bf. All will then come and haunt me down if the cold hard truth is out. (the worse outcome)

Ai ya.. At the moment, i am not so worried as it is an either this or that answer until that very day. I am living now as if nothing is happening or at least try to. (trying to bluff myself? ya.. Trying very hard..) I have not been seeing him for more than a week. Missing him so much!! But there is nothing i can do to meet him.. I don't want to see him unless he got an answer, if not i will be emo in front of him again. I hate the emo me facing him. Making me so weak..

Well, Still hoping for the best.. Wish me luck!! :)