Feeling better, i guess..

After msning with may, i feel much better.

At least for now, i think i know where is my problem.

I think i cried because i feel sad and helpless. And have too much time.

Probably because of the incident that happen on wed that made me feel worse yesterday. Or maybe is the things he said to me after his birthday. I think so, or i guess so.

I can feel that he is in tremendous amount of stress. I felt helpless that i can't give him support that he needs. Or worse, i gave him more stress.

Actually, i started to cry a few weeks when i had a bad feeling that something wrong is going to happen. The best thing is i dunno what it is. Now, it makes more sense. It's probably a woman sixth sense.

What's making it worse is the coldness i received from him. I had similar feeling abt 4 yrs plus ago. I hate this kinda of feeling. Am i worried? Yes, i am. Worried abt him more than myself.

I hope he can less stressed up after his exams. And that things will be better then. I just have to hope for the best to happen.

For now, let just leave this alone. :)